How does Suicide Begin?
How can Mental Patients help?
My Personal Journey Through Suicidal Thoughts
Where to Share Your Story?
A part of me wonders if there is a sudden shift in the necessity of those who live with Mental Health Disorders to educate those who have no experience. The reason for this is because we are all too familiar with how hopeless life can be, but let’s explore this further.
I was reading an article on CNN about how 1 in 4 young people are reporting suicidal thoughts according to data compiled by the CDC. It immediately made me realize that for the first time in my life, my mental health disorder has a greater purpose than ever before.
First, I wanted to take this moment to first raise awareness to how suicidal thoughts begin and second call upon those of us who have experienced these feelings for most of our lives to spread our stories. I do believe that more than anyone else, those who live with mental health disorders are well aware of how much effort it takes to choose life.
How Do Suicidal Thoughts or Ideations Begin?
Suicidal thoughts and ideations are common. Medical News Today says it best:
Many online sources agree that the first tell tale sign of suicidal thoughts and ideations is feeling or appearing to feel trapped or hopeless. The symptoms continue on to include feeling intolerable emotional pain, having or appearing to have an abnormal preoccupation with violence, dying or death, having mood swings (happy or sad) and talking about revenge, guilt or shame. For a full list of potential symptoms, check out Medical News Today.
To further understand how suicidal thoughts or ideations begin, the article I referenced from CNN includes some words from Vaile Wright, senior director of health care innovation for the American Psychological Association. She says:
I believe what Vaile Wright had to say in the article by CNN is very similar to how those affected by Mental Health Disorders feel all the time. There is no middle or end in Mental Health Disorders, there is only a constant fight and a hope that we can continue to see the light even when the darkness is always present. Furthermore, for those with Mental Health Disorders, our disorder goes with us everywhere and there is no way to shake it, sometimes even in the presence of medication and therapy.
What Can Mental Health Patients do to Help?
For most of us, I know I can say for sure in my case, we have an opportunity here to spread some positivity with our own stories. CNN cites engaging friends and family on Social Media, reaching out to Suicide prevention hotlines, even if your not in crisis, but I think there is even more that can be done to prevent suicide, and the answer may lie in those who are well acquainted to the effects of suicidal thoughts and ideations.
Whether anonymously, or not, I ask all of you who have struggled or are struggling with Mental Health Disorders to send share your stories. Include information like:
I would like to start this off with my own story. I do hope to see my fellow mental health warriors responding to this call to educate those who have never seen or experienced what we have known to be reality.
My Journey Through Suicidal Thoughts & Ideations
My story started out with a diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder at age 11. Soon after, a peer from school died in a freak accident. Before I turned 23, I had been to well over 40+ funerals all while dealing with a mood disorder with no cure. My first experience of psychosis was when I was 16. This happened just after my boyfriend of 2 years and first love, also diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, had hung himself from a swing-set at a park in Winter Garden.
I chose suffering more than I chose to accept what is. When I read this initially, I would have thought he was crazy. How does one not experience suffering with ups and downs and trauma? The answer is simple; stop allowing it to torment, and dictate the next best right choice you can make. I don’t have to suffer, I can feel sadness without the suffering that comes from disproportionate emotional anguish. The next quote by Buddha is:
When I started to change my negative thinking patterns, and embrace positive thinking patterns, I realized that my inner suffering and my will to stay alive was stronger than ever. How I speak to myself determines how I feel, behave and think about things.
This last quote is the strongest one for me. It was the quote that made me seek acceptance for myself. Buddha Says:
I think that when I learned to accept that some situations are not problems, but rather realities, it enhanced my ability to stop trying to find a solution. I cannot personally change the reality that Bipolar Disorder is not curable to those in the scientific community, however, I believe that Bipolar Disorder is possibly curable or more manageable if I accept that it exists and look for ways to improve how I feel, think and behave, I am living a happier way to exist.
My advice to anyone who’s struggling is this: Choose happiness. Choose to stop seeing hopelessness when simply being alive is hopeful and worthwhile. Choose to believe you can overcome your inner turmoil because you are a survivor. Choose to embrace your strength and lean on yourself. Choose to be your own hero, but choose not to decide you are weak when you reach out for support during the tough times. Choose life even when you can’t see how it will get better, because it will, and most thoughts are fleeting. Choose to speak kindly to yourself and others and offer forgiveness as often as possible.
Where to Share Your Story?
There are many forums for sharing your story, and my blog is one of them. If you are interested in sharing your story on my blog, click below to submit your story and I will happily publish it.
Facebook, Instagram, YouTube, Reddit, Tumblr, Twitter and Linkedin are also great places to share and raise awareness.
This is your chance to change someone else’s life by simply sharing what you have experienced and how you overcame it. Be someones hero with your unique mental illness story or at least try to be.