Verse:
I hit a wall,
I knew I would
I fell from up high
And landed inside of me
Outside of you
Just outside of you
Pre-chorus:
Don’t know how I feel
Don’t want to be alone
Baby you can try to go away
I won’t, I won’t
Chorus:
I don’t give up
That easily
I will stand and fight,
I don’t move on that quickly
I will bring you light
I will bring you life
Verse:
Nothing is as it seems
But that’s just the way it goes
Nothing is as it seems
But that’s the way it goes
That’s just the way it goes…
Pre-chorus:
Don’t know how I feel
Don’t want to be alone
Baby you can try to go away
I won’t, I won’t
Chorus:
I don’t give up
That easily
I will stand and fight,
I don’t move on that quickly
I will bring you light
I will bring you life
Verse:
My mouth is dry I cannot speak
I heard what you said But it’s hurting me
This is the end I saw it right away
I know if I ask It won’t make you stay
Chorus:
Excuse me if I cry for a moment
Love is not an simple thing To let go of
Excuse me if I beg for a second Or two
I hold on cause I loved you
Verse:
My heart is hurting, I know it will heal though
My mind starts racing When I think about you
Even when You put me last I wanted you anyway
But when I asked for more
You choose not to stay.
Chorus:
Excuse me if I cry for a moment
Love is not an simple thing To let go of
Excuse me if I beg for a second Or two
I hold on cause I loved you
Verse:
Deep inside I know that we Weren’t right
I know you Are not the One for me
Chorus:
Excuse me if I cry for a moment
Love is not an simple thing To let go of
Excuse me if I beg for a second Or two
I hold on cause I loved you
(Repeat Chorus to Outro)
Verse:
You text me to say, that your life hasn’t been the same
without me you’ve been stuck in the rain, of your coming hurricane. Ya
Pre-chorus:
I can’t do anything to make you want to change, so I no longer try
I’ve been rather busy too, trying hard not to cry
Chorus:
Love isn’t hard, but we make it hard
Love isn’t work, until it all hurts
Love isn’t blind, it tries to behave
But falling in love, is worth being brave
Verse:
You tell me again, that you wish we were more than friends. You let yourself lie
tell everyone who listens what I did wrong and why. Ya
Pre-chorus:
I can’t do anything to make you want to change, so I no longer try
I’ve been rather busy too, trying hard not to cry
Chorus:
Love isn’t hard, but we make it hard
Love isn’t work, until it all hurts
Love isn’t blind, it tries to behave
But falling in love, is worth being brave
Bridge:
Let me tell you
that I apologize
for everything I didn’t do
to make things right
Pre-chorus:
I can’t do anything to make you want to change, so I no longer try
I’ve been rather busy too, trying hard not to cry
Chorus:
Love isn’t hard, but we make it hard
Love isn’t work, until it all hurts
Love isn’t blind, it tries to behave
But falling in love, is worth being brave
Outro:
It’s brave. it’s brave to fall in love. It’s brave. It’s brave.
Verse:
I keep looking at this clock, but the time is barely moving.
Watching all the cars go by, standing still while others are doing.
It doesn’t bother me too much, to observe but not participate.
They label it a crying shame, but I’m trying not to concentrate.
Chorus:
When I do, I get stuck, I get stuck inside my head.
When I move, I feel numb, I feel numb, I’m a fool again.
When I try, I feel sad, I feel sad, so I cry.
When I do, I get lost, I get lost in my sorry truth.
I’m a fool again
Verse:
If I could have anything, I would want to be set free.
I can’t remember anything, from before the age of 16.
I imagine this is why I don’t, get involved in life too much.
I call it peace of mind, to remove the things that were a crutch.
Chorus:
When I do, I get stuck, I get stuck inside my head.
When I move, I feel numb, I feel numb, I’m a fool again.
When I try, I feel sad, I feel sad, so I cry.
When I do, I get lost, I get lost in my sorry truth.
I’m a fool again
Bridge:
I can’t stand looking in the mirror, it makes my flaws much clearer
I want to see past this all again. I want to love me till the journeys end
It doesn’t mean that I don’t care, but I am losing all of my hair, from caring just a little bit
I don’t want to feel it. I said I don’t want to feel it. Yea
Chorus:
When I do, I get stuck, I get stuck inside my head.
When I move, I feel numb, I feel numb, I’m a fool again.
When I try, I feel sad, I feel sad, so I cry.
When I do, I get lost, I get lost in my sorry truth.
I’m a fool again
Outro:
The fool again, again
I am the fool. Again.
TRIZZY Verse:
It’s ya boy TRIZZY SANATA you heard me… ya … huh … shout out Niki Maria you know … we gonna do it like this … talk to em shawty ya
Niki Hook:
Making a left at this light / already out of your sight / going to look for a fight / cause I need one / you showing up in the night / turning on every light / waiting for me to strike / but bitch you ain’t worth my time / I’m staying on my grind / not wasting no one’s time / I’m smart so I can climb / to the top of this hill / pay off every bill / I’m not playing for keeps but bitch I’m keeping it real
Niki Chorus:
if you want to drive in my lane / get your head up in this game / nothing left inside your frame (nothing left inside your frame) / you’ve been acting really tame / really tame / let’s go get that fame
TRIZZY Verse:
alright / I got my shades on though / hoping out the lambo I got the fame ya / all up in the game with the Gucci shades ya / feeling like birdman counting all this money / and everywhere I go ya I got snow bunnies / they call me the man ya they call me the man / I ain’t at the beach but I got all the sand / I jump around the city man / I jump round the city man / I’m feeling like I’m Diddy man / I’m seeing so much titties man / ya we chilling out at the strip club / ya we having fun wiling out bro ya / we gon’ live forever / Imma go get that thing forever
Niki Hook:
Making a left at this light / already out of your sight / going to look for a fight / cause I need one / you showing up in the night / turning on every light / waiting for me to strike / but bitch you ain’t worth my time / I’m staying on my grind / not wasting no one’s time / I’m smart so I can climb / to the top of this hill / pay off every bill / I’m not playing for keeps but bitch I’m keeping it real
TRIZZY Verse 2:
I’m jumping out the mazzi with a bad bitch ya / bottle in my hand that’s some champagne chills / everything we do is big / you know it’s undisputed / TRIZZY SANTANA in the building leave you muted / you so sexy / ya you so fine / ya girl I’m so happy that you all mine / we do it big / we be chillin hard / big bentleys / big bentleys on the blvd / I be cruisin / I be cruisin / I be on the yacht / y’all be talking / y’all be talking / but not doing a lot / I don’t understand / my brains sorta fucking fried / Imma go and get that fame / fuck a 9 to 5
Niki Hook:
Making a left at this light / already out of your sight / going to look for a fight / cause I need one / you showing up in the night / turning on every light / waiting for me to strike / but bitch you ain’t worth my time / I’m staying on my grind / not wasting no one’s time / I’m smart so I can climb / to the top of this hill / pay off every bill / I’m not playing for keeps but bitch I’m keeping it real
Verse:
I’m not giving you up
that’s what I say to you
why can’t you hear my words
when I tell you
that I love you
Chorus:
who … ooo … who waits around
who holds it down for
you … ooo … for you
who has your back
who does their best for
you … ooo … for you
Verse:
I make these sacrifices
and I’m not ashamed
to speak my truth
maybe you will not hear me
but I speak anyway
Chorus:
who … ooo … who waits around
who holds it down for
you … ooo … for you
who has your back
who does their best for
you … ooo … for you
Verse:
I know better then to tear a wall down
to beg for it all
I know better this time
I won’t hang around
for something that doesn’t belong to me
I will swallow my pride
my pride, my pride
Chorus:
who … ooo … who waits around
who holds it down for
you … ooo … for you
who has your back
who does their best for
you … ooo … for you
Verse:
Trying to dig deep, these secrets I don’t want to keep
My feelings are locked in tight, scared to lose but I just might
I want you to know how I feel, but this is something too surreal
I’m holding onto anything, attending to my own issues again
Pre-chorus:
I want to be open wide, show my feelings.
I don’t want to hide, but every time I try to, it’s ends with losing you.
Chorus:
how I feel is hard to say, when I’ve loved someone they’ve gone away
It’s taken everything I have, to believe that I am brave.
How I feel is buried deep, a hollow place I cannot see.
It’s taking everything I know, to break down the walls, let go of control.
Verse:
I have spent a while, trying to convince myself I’m capable
Every step I take, falling in the trap of the next truth.
I want you to know how I feel, but it is something too surreal
My heart is aching in my chest again, afraid that I might lose in the end
Pre-chorus:
I want to be open wide, show my feelings.
I don’t want to hide, but every time I try to, it’s ends with losing you.
Chorus:
how I feel is hard to say, when I’ve loved someone they’ve gone away
It’s taken everything I have, to believe that I am brave.
How I feel is buried deep, a hollow place I cannot see.
It’s taking everything I know, to break down the walls, let go of control.
Verses:
I don’t expect you to, understand me
loving me is hard to do, through your eyes I can see
Pre-chorus:
I want to be open wide, show my feelings.
I don’t want to hide, but every time I try to, it’s ends with losing you.
Chorus:
how I feel is hard to say, when I’ve loved someone they’ve gone away
It’s taken everything I have, to believe that I am brave.
How I feel is buried deep, a hollow place I cannot see.
It’s taking everything I know, to break down the walls, let go of control.
Bridge:
Why do you keep leaving me? Am I really hard to love for you
is it me or is it you?
Nobody really knows, where all of this love goes
Outro:
I want you to know how I feel, but this is something too surreal
It’s taking everything I have just to understand how I feel (repeat once)
wanna be open wide
Verse:
Coming soon…
Verse:
Does it ever end, the way that I am holding it in again.
Does it ever go away, I don’t want to feel it anyway.
I know that I fucked up, drained myself in filling someone else’s cup.
The only thing that’s left, is this whole that I am sinking in.
Chorus:
Tragedies don’t mean nothing no more, this place that I am,
I’m sinking through the floorboards.
Gravity is a means to the end, rising up inside and no one’s there to see it.
Do I even want to know what this is, is this my life or is they my hell.
I don’t really care lose or win, but I might fall into this trap again.
They’re coming for me again.
Verse:
Was it all a fantasy, the way this sadness used to kill me.
Now I’m at peace in my life, battling these enemies behind closed lines.
I know that I can’t stop now, eventually I will win this somehow.
The chaos that’s provoking me, the demons fall as far as I can see.
They were coming for me. What the fuck did they think …
Chorus:
Tragedies don’t mean nothing no more, this place that I am,
I’m sinking through the floorboards.
Gravity is a means to the end, rising up inside and no one’s there to see it.
Do I even want to know what this is, is this my life or is they my hell.
I don’t really care lose or win, but I might fall into this trap again.
They’re coming for me again.
Outro:
I will win in the end
Cause I’m not giving up on me
No one’s coming back for me
Verse:
When did I, begin believing? That love was too good for me to feel.
Why would I, not allow myself? To feel someone’s love, surrounding me.
Chorus:
Cause it hurts to be loved by anyone, it’s work to stay perfect for everyone.
It’s taking all of me to take away, this part of me that’s scared to stay though I know.
It will happen for me, someday.
Verse:
Why did I, start to think?
That I was not worth all the loving that I needed.
Is it true? I picked on you.
Till you couldn’t stand to be who you really are.
Chorus:
Cause it hurts to be loved by anyone, it’s work to stay perfect for everyone.
It’s taking all of me to take away, this part of me that’s scared to stay though I know.
It will happen for me, someday.
Bridge:
I know that I will feel worthy.
Of a deeper love, of a deeper love.
I know one day, it may not be right away.
That I will fall in love the way I know I could.
Chorus:
Cause it hurts to be loved by anyone, it’s work to stay perfect for everyone.
It’s taking all of me to take away, this part of me that’s scared to stay though I know.
It will happen for me, someday.
Verse:
You won’t even talk to me, you don’t know what it does to me.
Sitting all alone in my bed, stuck inside my fucking head.
Verse:
You made me fall in love with you, I really thought that this was true.
How could I have been so blind? I really thought that you were mine.
Verse:
You left me out here in the silent zone.
Never made it clear what I did to break down your walls.
Verse:
Every time I think of you, I imagine you are coming through.
Wrap me in your arms so tight, I don’t even want to fight.
Verse:
You act like I’ve been hurting you, something I just wouldn’t do.
You hate me and it’s killing, I don’t want to be just a memory, just a memory.
When it’s you and me.
Verse:
Coming soon…
“How I Feel“, “Who … For You” and “My Memories” are all Niki Maria Original compositions and lyrics.
“Done With All Of It”, “The Depression Trap”, “It Will Happen”, and “Won’t Talk to Me” were made using the RapChat app on iOS. All the Lyrics of these songs are written by Niki Maria.
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